Ultimate Wealth

What do you mean “Rabbit Hole”?

May 17, 2006

Journey of self-discovery and purpose of life.

It is a tall order, but one that calls to everyone. Some hear and respond, others seek solace in distractions to drown out the background noise. Like a wound that isn’t treated, the soul will call for attention. It was here first…and it wants out.

August 2/2005

The diamond way. A hand comes out of my chest holding all the fear and darkness contained within me. A swirling light manifests itself out of space and time and surrounds the hand holding the darkness. The swirling light interacts with the dark and turns it into a diamond; a prism to transform all basic elements of darkness to their natural forms of light. What was once fear and blackness returns to my chest as a diamond of light.

AND SO OFF WE GO! This is a recollection of a dream I had while we were in Las Vegas. No, there were no drugs involved, but I’m not claiming normalcy. I just wanted you to know that I am Joe Shmoe. I am as normal or not-normal as you are, and I am on a journey of self-discover to find my and everyone else’s purpose in life. I know that with the thousands of years of truly intelligent people that have come before me, someone must have the answers. We just need to find them again. No doubt this dream was spawned by the fact that I was reading Entering the Diamond Way: Tibetan Buddhism Meets The West.
This just goes to show you that answers come in bits and pieces and you never know where the next step is, or will come from.

While this opened up some interesting concepts for me, I wanted more. Something hands on that I could sink my teeth into. I was hardcore Christian until I joined the army in my early twenties and I knew I didn’t want to cover old territory.

So Shamanism It Is.

Something always seemed appealing about living close to the earth and I always feel peaceful when outside. This led me to think that I would try to understand shamanism. I had an interesting experience one time when I was in a bus stop in Dartmouth Nova Scotia. I was sitting in the bus stop and an older Native lady sat down beside me. She said she was I shaman (cant exactly remember how that one came up). My Christian upbringing automatically screamed “WITCH DOCTOR” but for some reason I didn’t feel any evil what so ever. As I recall what I remember the most is that we talked. We didn’t try to win each other over, we just talked. When she left she said something that has always stuck with me. She said “You are very spiritual for a white man”. Meant something to me anyway.

After the “Diamond Way” I thought I would pick up a book on shamanism and that book was “Secrets of Shamanism” by Jose Stevens. This was my first intro to this stuff, and it seemed interesting, and I learned a few things. One is that if you want to achieve anything, you must be able to specifically state what it is you want in any given circumstance before you can seek out how to attain or achieve it. Another is once you know what you want; you must know what to ask to receive the proper answers or direction.

I thought I was chasing wealth to achieve freedom so that I could find my life’s purpose. Now I feel that once you follow your heart, the money follows soon after word. Go figure.

Some day, if this makes no sense to you now, you will hit the wall. You’ll sit down and go “What now?” At that point you can pull the covers over your head, or jump down the rabbit hole. You can’t find something unless you go and look.

You and I are about to go looking…

Bring a Flashlight, rabbit holes are dark,

SOLDADO